I have fuck up this time.
Spent 5 hours working today at the office so I could sleep better. But I’m wide awake because instead of worrying about tomorrow, I’m worrying about life after this position ends in June.
Did I make a mistake by rejecting NYU for grad school? The more I think about it, the more it might be.
I just don’t want ti go back to school, I need a good job while in school. And it’s tough as fuck finding a job at the school I picked over NYU.
I might be regretting my graduate school decision.
I have to be it worth it, I have to find new things to explore, to learn, to prove that my weakness wasn’t right.
I need to make a change!
178 lbs to 108 lbs (70 pounds in five months)
I’ve posted here before and used the same before photo but I thought I’d update. I did this simply by eating healthy. it’s possible!
Lord, give me the strength & will power she had!!
"There’s as many atoms in a single molecule of your DNA as there are stars in the typical galaxy. We are, each of us, a little universe."
Everything you love is here
Over load, over burnt. Felt like giving up today, just quit and run. But I stayed because I got to finish this. I have never felt so overwhelm at work that I wanted to cry.
Ian McEwan, The Comfort of Strangers
Did I really go across the country only to find that I want to go to grad school here at home?
I had to go, had to visit all the big schools to realize I wanted home.
At least know I know that I got in to all the schools, that there was no rejection and that I rejected them. At least I know how far I could have gone. There will be no regrets, hopefully.